Monthly Archives: September 2013

Surrendering Our Desires


~Isaiah 55:8,9 (NLT)“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.

Why is it, that we tend to so many times, shift things around to try and get God to go with the flow of ‘our’ plans. We invite God in to flow with OUR ways, OUR plans for our lives…when really, we should be flowing with HIS direction for our lives. Just because we a have a desire in our heart, doesn’t mean that it’s the ‘right’ time for that desire to be birthed. It might not mean that He’s saying no to our dreams, but He might just be saying ‘It’s just not the right time. I need to do some work in You that is going to prepare you for what I have in store..and it’s something great. You won’t be dissapointed! But you need to follow ME. You need to surrender to Me.”

How quick we are to dismiss the little things He sometimes puts on our hearts to do. There are times when He asks me to be obedient to Him in an area, but because it might seem like something small or insignificant or boring and mundane…My first reaction is to want to shrug it off because it’s something so small.

But let me tell you this… When God says to your heart that He’s preparing you for something…testing will come. If we aren’t willing to be obedient in the little things, then He won’t open the door for the bigger things. It’s in those little acts of obedience that He prepares our hearts to be able to take on the responsibilities and challenges that walking out our dreams will come with.

He KNOWS what we can handle and what we can’t. He knows what we’re ready for. He knows. He knows what needs to change in our hearts. He knows what’s best for us. He knows us better then we know ourselves!

Let’s not despise small beginnings!! Let’s humble ourselves before God and get rid of any pride that is shouting “I want to get my way!! I want it now! I’m ready! I know what’s best for me!”

~James 4:6 But he gives us even more grace to stand against such evil desires. As the Scriptures say, “God opposes the proud but favors the humble.”

Let’s say “God, I’m so thankful that you know the dreams and desires of my heart- for YOU are the one who has placed them there! I surrender my dreams to you and will allow YOU to take the lead and I will flow with what You’re doing in me. Prepare me. Draw me near to You Lord for that is where I am most satisfied. I will take delight in doing the ‘little’ things that you are asking me to do for I know You would never ask me to do something for no reason. I humble myself before You Lord and acknowledge that Your ways are high above my ways. I delight in You Lord and know that You delight in giving me the desires of my heart.”


Are you willing to pray that prayer with me? Is anyone struggling with taking the little steps towards your dreams and desires? Please share if you feel led so that we can pray together ❤

God Bless,



This week wasn’t my best week. It wasn’t full of warm fuzzy’s and smooth moments.

I’ve struggled with offense.
I’ve battled with trusting God with my sweet little 4 year old who is going off to school all on his own-without me there to protect him.
I’ve questioned my purpose.
I’ve over analyzed.

I could keep going with that list, but we don’t have all day. (trust me, the list is much longer)

BUT….In the midst of all that, I’ve come to realize…(DEEP BREATH)…that it’s not. all. about…..ME. (ouch)
It’s so easy to make it all about us isn’t it? After all…our feelings are real, our hurts are real, our dreams are real. But our reality can sometimes be a little clouded I think. It can overtake and cloud God’s truth in our lives.

The revelation that I received this week in the midst of all of my insecurities, doubts and ‘ouch, sorry Lord’ moments, is that it’s not supposed to be all about MY’s about HIS. My dreams, my desires, my, my, my – isn’t supposed to be the focus.

So, I decided to ask God- What DO YOU WANT Lord? What can I do for YOU? What do You want me to do to receive the vision that YOU have? And this is what He spoke- plain and simple.

“To receive fresh vision go to bed at 10pm and wake up at 5:30 am to spend time with me”

So that’s it. Nothing to exciting! But nonetheless I said ‘yes’. I’ve started going to bed earlier then I normally would so that I could wake up more rested and ready to seek The Lord and hear from Him.

It’s time to get the focus off of me and unto HIM. I’m excited to lay down my desires and pick up the desires that God has for me. I’m excited to just commune with Him and fall more in love with Him… I’m excited to continue on this journey with Him-I really wouldn’t have it any other way. I’m ready to receive #freshvision!

Where there is no vision [no redemptive revelation of God], the people perish; but he who keeps the law [of God, which includes that of man]–blessed (happy, fortunate, and enviable) is he. (proverbs 29:18 AMP)


Lesson Learned

Negativity is like a downward spiral, and if you don’t stop it right away, it picks up speed and just keeps going and going until somewhere…there’s a crash landing. Can I get an amen??

One small misunderstanding this week turned into a BIG deal blown out of proportion because I became offended and misunderstood one of my closest friends. Instead of taking any negative thoughts captive (as God’s word tells us to do) I let my mind wander in that offense. I allowed that offense to creep in and then that negative thought led to more and more and more negative thoughts until I was actually moping around the house causing the rest of my family to suffer. I became snappy, short with my words, and so on.

By allowing this offense to remain in my heart, I was putting a wall up between God and myself. When you put up a wall on the inside, you’re not only blocking people out, you’re blocking out God…and that is something that I’ve walked through before and I vowed to never put up a wall that would not allow my Heavenly Father in ever again.

Because I shut out God instead of letting Him in, I focused on everything that was going wrong around me. Instead of communicating with my friend about what was bothering me…I just kept on assuming what I THOUGHT was truth and it just went down hill from there. (It was not truth by the way- but I took it as truth)

Lesson learned: Don’t assume. Keep the lines of communication open within your relationships. Invite God into the situation!!

Here are some scriptures that I came away with from all of this….

We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 2 Corinthians 10:5 (NIV)

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2 (NIV)

“Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother or sister has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to them; then come and offer your gift. Matthew 5:23-24 (NIV)

(For those of you wondering, my friend and I did end up talking and clearing things up…but not before I acted less then graceful in my state of offense.)

Friends, I’m not perfect and I do mess up. BUT, God is bigger then my mess up’s and He’s bigger then yours. He’s a God of second chances. He is a God that forgives.
Although I’m not proud of my recent behavior, I’m sharing my lesson learned with you so that you to can know that we can and DO come away victorious even when we mess up if we can come humbly before God and ask Him to teach us, convict us, help us.

Take your mess and allow God to turn it into a message. Don’t wallow in guilt, thank God for teaching you, get back up and live in His grace.

Blessings Xo,

Tara ❤